I woke up with a vibration in my chest. I’d slept on the
Canadians’ couch so that I wouldn’t accidentally oversleep, and I woke up to
the sound of Roberta singing hymns and the smell of warm cinnamon- French
toast. We had a huge breakfast, which the kids started eating while I finished
packing my bag. When I finally sat down there were four pieces of French toast
on my plate. It was too much food, but when you live in China and somebody puts
French toast in front of you, you eat it. That’s the rule. We had been planning
this breakfast for a week. We bought the fancy bread and blueberry jam from the
western supermarket in the heart of the city. We made spritzers with white
wine, soda water, and mango juice. It was delicious. The time to go came all
too quickly. Adrian called a cab and the first batch of ready Berzenjis piled
in along with me, my bag, and the ‘ni keyi’ flag hung on its flagpole, my
hiking stick that the kids painted for me as a surprise.
When we got to the scene (Sunwen Park, under the Zhongshan
statue) I got nervous. There were about 50 people gathered to see us off. More
came later. Many volunteers from Ann’s charity (The Sunshine is Beside You)
were there with a beautiful banner that displayed our route, a lot of writing
in Chinese, and an image of Ann and I walking. I started greeting people.
Asking westerners to get up and going
before 9AM on a Saturday morning is a
tall order. I was thankful and humbled to see to many of my friends there.
Gemma and Sabine brought us sunflowers and champagne, which the press was
delighted to see me open and spray. I could feel my emotions rising, but I held
myself together for the media interviews and the pictures. It wasn’t until
Lukai, the youngest Canadian, took my hand and dragged me through the crowd
when I became unhinged. Lukai is six and adorable. He led me though the mob of
people to show me the men in wheeelchairs. He asked why those men didn’t have
legs, and I explained that the men maybe had an accident, or maybe they were born
that way. I might have also told him they were Transformers. I had to throw
some color in there to make it interesting. He held my hand tight and buried
his face into me when the man held out his hand to meet Lukai. After a bit of
encouragement, Lukai shook the Transformer’s hand and said ‘hello’.
‘Lukai’ I said, kneeling down to his level. ‘I’ve got to go
away for a little while. Ann and I are going to walk a really long way to help
these people and to help the babies at New Day- at the foster home. I’ll be
away for a while to help them. But I’ll be back when the weather gets warm. Do
you understand?’
Lukai took a deep breath, looked at the ground, then looked
at me, excitedly. It was the same excitement that comes over him when he’s in a
good mood and he wants to express himself but can’t seem to find the right
words fast enough. Like when he is telling us how much he likes bacon, or how
beautiful he thinks I am (‘Dawah, you’re SO beautiful-you’re like the
sun….you’re like a flower…you’re like a sunflower……. like a sunflower
Jesus!!!). Lukai grabbed the sunflower out of my hand and half asked/ half
proclaimed, ‘You’re going away to help people, like Superman? Like you’re
Super? Like, you’re Supergirl?’ He smiled, proud of himself for solving the
riddle.
‘Yeah. Kind of like that.’ I said as hot, heavy tears
started rolling down my face.
The tears continued. I said ‘goodbye for a while’ to my
China family and finally took the first steps in the direction of Beijing.
After six months of planning, we were finally heading in the right direction.
Well, actually I first started walking in the wrong direction, but Ann quickly
corrected me.
It was a long but nice day walking. We had about ten people
joining us for the first day. May walked in designer sneakers which, according
to her, is ‘nothing compared to shopping for 8 hours in Hong Kong in high
heels’. After I got a handle on my emotions I chatted with our supporters as we
walked, making the time pass quickly. We arrived to our first stop around 3:30
pm after logging 21 kilometers. After everyone rested, our posse began to
leave. My tears continued, uncontrollably. The best word I can use to describe
what I was feeling is ‘overwhelmed’, but that doesn’t seem to cover it. I guess
that’s the point. My body was a vessel for humility, appreciation, fear of the
unknown, excitement, sadness, happiness, and love. It was…..intense, to say the
least.
I slept for a while, then we went to dinner with Ann’s
family and their neighbors. Half of the village seemed to be in that
restaurant. We sat and listened to the men playfully heckle each other, putting
on a show for the women who laughed and cheered in return. The men’s words and
motions became louder and more dramatic after each ‘ganbei’ (cheers) we made
with our glasses of red wine or vodka. I didn’t always know what they were
saying, but I knew they were being hilarious. Ann filled me in. She always
fills me in.
I made a few calls as I walked home, causing more tears. We
sipped whiskey and chatted with Ann's family before heading off to bed. It was a very good first
day.
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